OH NO! LOOK WHAT JAKE FOUND!
haha Today I was on my computer as Jake was playing... when all of the sudden he comes jetting towards me so excitedly, and I whirl around, shocked, to see him with a PACIFIER in his mouth!!! I have no idea where he found it, because he's been here with me the whole time... maybe behind the couch or something(?) Probably covered in dust-bunnies! He hasn't had one in his mouth during "awake-time" since he was a BABY, and we stopped putting him to sleep with one a while ago too- so it was a little startling to see him, WALKING(!), with a PACIFIER in his mouth again. He's such a little *boy* now, not a baby! But I thought it was pretty funny & cute too- that he found it, put it in, and was excited about it. He crawled and walked around for about 5 minutes with it-- pulling it out and putting it back in-- then threw it down to find the next adventure. I'm so glad this is not a familiar sight in my house though... he's too big for a pacifier! It did make me laugh.
FAMILY
P.S. I'm feeling all warm & fuzzy tonight! I'm so thankful for the family and love that Jake is surrounded by!!! Having family like this makes the prospect of having two babies so close together seem a lot more manageable. And actually tonight seeing my baby nephew made me excited to bring another *baby* into the mix! (I always love imagining the boys growing up together, but lately have been nervous thinking about the actual newborn part, having Jake and being alone most of the time, as Kevin works so hard for us so isn't around very much.) It's so unlike me to be nervous about this. With Jake, being pregnant, giving birth, and having a newborn was the most natural, awe-inspiring thing for me. I didn't have fears, I was in total bliss! (sleep-deprived bliss!) But the hormones this time around are messing with me, and I've been playing this tug-of-war with these emotions the entire pregnancy! Re-framing thoughts, trying to stay in a peaceful place and keep fears/misgivings at bay, ugh! It's NOT like me! But it is what it is! Everybody tells me that you won't be taking anything away from the first child, that your love doubles when you think your heart is already overflowing, and it's hard work but you get through it and everybody is fine. I know it's true, and I know that the baby is a gift from God and once he is here, I'll never be able to imagine life without him. I am meant to be this baby's mama! So all that, to say that tonight I am excited about our baby! I love babies and can't believe that we're going to have another one so soon, and it's going to be fun! (nursing again, first smiles again, the cooing and oh, yah, especially the many naps!) How wonderful to grow from a family of 3 to a family of 4!
Anyways, about my warm & fuzzies, the last few days we've been so lucky to have family close-by. Kevin's parents and his brother/wife/baby have all been beach camping at the beach about 5 minutes from our house. It's been so nice to drive down and hang out with them. I've always known how blessed we are to have such a wonderful family, but tonight it just hit me as I watched Jake with his grandparents. He is so lucky to have two sets of amazing grandparents who love him so much. It's so cool to see Jake so comfortable with them, and how much fun he has with them. (And them with him!) I just wanted to sit there and take it all in forever. He is so lucky! Blessed! {happy sigh} There's nothing like seeing happiness in your childs eyes!!!
MOMMYHOOD CRAZINESS
So, sorry for the long, rambling, random post, but it's about to get 'randomer'. Because all of this reflecting on family makes me remember something I said to Kevin lastnight, and I wonder if anybody else does this too. First of all, here's what lastnight was all about. I just have this fear that if I died, Jake wouldn't know my family since they live farther & Kevin's so busy, so lastnight as Kevin was trying to fall asleep, I had to make *sure* that he helps Jake to stay very involved in my family's lives. I made him promise that he would take him to family functions. And Kevin, exhausted and trying to sleep, was trying with as much enthusiasm as he could muster, to convince me that he would. I have to admit, it was the most sincere muffled "uh huh" I ever heard! He's used to my craziness!
Has anybody else ever done the "if I die" thing? I guess it's just a little quirk that I have-- I don't think about it a lot or anything, but part of mommyhood is making sure your children are taken care of. And I tend to take things a bit farther than others, so it's just a funny little mommyhood thing that I've been doing ever since Jake was born. Just on occasion!! It's become pretty funny. (Although Kevin always changes the subject pretty quickly after he says "okay honey" and we laugh, and then he doesn't want to think about it anymore.)
Here's how it goes-- As I'm going about my day-to-day routine, I suddenly feel the need to tell Kevin some little piece of information (that I obviously feel is very important), just to make sure he knows it in case something happened to me. It's a sudden thought... oh my gosh, Kevin doesn't know how to do this... he needs to know! And out it comes, before I know it: "Kevin, make sure if I die that you use this bottle brush to get the nipples clean,"... or "Kevin, if I die, make sure you remember that this thermometer is rectal and this one is oral/axillary", or whatever the important information happens to be. We always get a little laugh out of it! So maybe you *thought* I was crazy before, but now it's out!
Forgive the rambling, it's late and I'm tired and I should be sleeping!!!! Long day at Disneyland tomorrow {wrong night to stay up late!} - be prepared for some (hopefully) really cute photos! Have a beautiful day!
Jake has been fighting off a cold for a few days now. I feel so bad for him! In the middle of his sleep he just starts wailing! He's been really congested and soooo sleepy. No temp today, and just a low-grade fever yesterday. So I'm new to all of this. I'm supposed to go to the grocery store and Lowes today, but if Jake is so tired and fussy, I want him to be able to get his rest. (Plus I don't want him to wail in the store-- nothing consoles him except maybe a little nursing, quiet snuggles, and some more sleep). Every time he wakes up from his nap I think we're going to have a feeding and then leave for errands, but then he goes right back to sleep. I thought he wouldn't sleep well lastnight (as he did the same thing yesterday), but he slept like a BABY (!) *giggle* I guess his body knows what he needs. At least he isn't as congested and snorty, but maybe it's at the expense of his comfort... my GUESS is that he has a little sinus pressure making his head or ears hurt a little. OR, maybe he's teething. But he's been around a lot of people who have colds, and right after his vaccinations (so his immune system was down). At any rate, he's a little under the weather and I'm giving him a low-key day at home today.